Mr. Fireman & I had a talk Sunday night, & last night, which have led me to the new way I want to approach my life that I can hopefully stick to. (type A personality up in here...planner is my middle name).
I need to stop worrying so much about making the same mistakes I've made in the past. I need to stop worrying that I may or may not get hurt the same way I've been hurt in the past. I need to stop worrying about where my life may or may not go. I need to stop trying to plan my future now.
I need to enjoy this time with my friends, both those that live here & those that are coming 1000s of miles to see me. I need to enjoy my time in Houston. I need to enjoy the time I do get to see Mr. Fireman.
Maybe I'll get a new job offer & maybe I won't. Maybe we'll work out & maybe we won't. Maybe I'll stay in Houston & maybe I won't. I have no real control nor no real answers to any of those questions at this moment in time. I'm going to live for today & today only. In less than 4 months I'll be leaving Houston to go back to MN for a month & who knows what will happen after that. I've decided not to care.
(Because YOLO drives me nuts...)