Tuesday, August 8, 2017

The Things You Don't See

A million & a half years ago Alyssa & Pinky both wrote about the things you don't see on social media.  Okay so maybe it was just back in June, but that's still a long time.  I have had this post drafted with just a title since Alyssa did it back on June 1.  I have scheduled it probably 3 or 4 times since then without actually hitting post because I haven't taken the time to sit down & write anything.  I like to think I keep it pretty real on here but I also know there are things that I just don't write about or just haven't really gotten into lately because in all honesty I haven't been the best blogger at all this summer.  So here we go:

**Coaching sports actually stresses me out to no end not because it's so time consuming, but because it always comes with that possibility that I won't have a teaching job the following year if they choose to not bring me back as a coach.  I already left one job because of an athletic director & even though my new one seems a million times better, I can tell you right now until I have a contract for the following year in my hands I will be on edge (that's about 7-9 months from now)**

**I often feel like I have to choose between work & social media.  I already had a bleh summer when it came to blogging, although my IG was fairly poppin for awhile, but now that I'm back at work a)I have way less to take pictures of/write about b)I don't have the time to dedicate to reading/commenting/writing for blogs or all the hashtagging/liking/commenting on IG.**

**I don't care about it as much as I did even a couple months ago let alone 8 months ago when I signed up for Instagram for Success**

**I have a spending problem**

**My adorable dog sometimes makes me want to cry, or actually cry.  Okay so I haven't been so stressed out about him that I've actually cried since our first week together, but sometimes I still want to, especially now, because I feel like we aren't spending enough time together & he's not getting to run around/play with others enough**

**My adorable dog pisses me off some days**

**I don't know that I trust my own judgement when it comes to love because I've thought I've had that "when you know you know" feeling before & it turned out to be a complete disaster**

**I post so many pictures of my dog partly because he's adorable but mostly because I don't have time for a real social/love life so it's me & him**

**My apartment is often a disaster**

**When distance & real life get in the way I'm really bad at making an effort to reach out to people aka maintain friendships**

**Falling in love terrifies me for many reasons**

**I'm worse at being an adult now at almost 29 than I was at 24/25**

**I can be a real hot head**

**I will buy myself cheap ass store brand food & what not but my dog gets expensive dog food/treats**

**I don't like to ask for help/depend on people because I hate feeling like an inconvenience but also because I don't like the risk of being let down**

**I have trust issues**


  1. There are so many things that don't get shown on the Interwebs - I'm with you all the way on the pet thing. There's no video of me smacking the crap out of my horse but it happens, more often than not

  2. Omg, I didn't know you were under that kind of pressure coaching. That would be so stressful and make me not even excited about it.

    How did you find the Insta course? Do you think it was worth it or not?

  3. Dog Mom struggles are real!
    Stop guilting yourself over time not spent with Nash. Remind yourself that he could be at the pound interacting with barely anyone every day.
    Let yourself off the hook, not just about Nash but about all of these things. No one is expecting you to be perfect but you. I forget that on the regular. I'm much happier when I remember that. We're only human.

  4. Yep. So many things I can relate to. I may further borrow this idea for a post.

  5. This is a great idea for a post! I definitely have a spending problem too, but you already knew that, haha. And I struggle with my Friday posts because my life is SO boring.

  6. I definitely feel like I have to choose between work and social media. I don't even know why I'm so mentally drained all the time, but I have got to find a way to fix that. I understand the contract saga. THE. WORST.