I Just Have To Say

Although true, that ^, is not what I came here to say...

I just have to say: that I am sick & tired of people asking what exactly is going on between Mr. Fireman & I.  I don't know...and quite frankly at the moment I don't care.  Whatever is going on between us is working for us right now.  I'm just as confused as the rest of my friends & I get that they care & are just trying to help but at a certain point...getting asked weekly by multiple people if we're official or not or what we even are gets old.  When/if we come up with some kind of title I'll let ya know.  The more everyone else stresses about it the more it causes me to stress about it.

I just have to say: that I think it's super shitty that you're not even married yet & you're already asking me to lie to your fiance for you (should he even ask me) about money...

I just have to say: that I started crying the other day on my drive home when I heard "Blood Brothers" by Luke Bryan because it made me think again about joining the military & basically how my shot is gone due to age, debt, & the fact that my college major/GPA aren't competitive enough.

I just have to say: that on that same note I still can't listen to "Drink a Beer" by Luke Bryan because every time I think about how I woke up bawling from a dream about Mr. Fireman dying involving that song.

I just have to say: that the past week & a half as been one of the most stressful times in recent history and it's not over until Friday.

I just have to say: that the thought of possibly leaving Houston come this summer now scares me as much if not more than it used to excite me.

I just have to say: it really irritates me when someone starts a conversation with me via text & then just stops responding...

I just have to say: Netflix is both the best & worst thing to ever happen to me.  Since October I have finished/caught up on The Walking Dead, Hart of Dixie, & Friday Night Lights while currently watching Breaking Bad & Dawson's Creek.  I have shit on my DVR dating back to November...someone please tell me why I'm still paying for cable...

I just have to say: 9 out of 10 relationships that I see my friends/people of my generation in give me no hope that true love still exists.  The Hipsters & my parents are about the only 2 couples I know that give me hope for the future.