Thursday, June 9, 2016

Once Upon A Dream

Have you ever had reoccurring dreams?  Or dreams that just stick with you for days, months, years?  I'm sure if I thought real hard I could recall more, but there are 3 that stick out in my mind.  I had a dream Sunday morning that left me wide awake before 7 am which is what inspired this post.  Not that I see myself forgetting it anytime soon but I wanted to write it out & at some point possibly go see someone about it.  I'll write about that one last since it's the most recent.

I haven't had this dream in FOREVER.  As a child however I had it relatively frequently.  Sometimes I got further in the dream than others but it was always the same concept.  I would be at zoo, however not a zoo like you're probably thinking with elephants & giraffes, this one had dinosaurs.  Think the Flintstones.  I would always be wandering around the zoo but no one else was ever there except maybe my parents.  It always ended the same way, I would fall into a pit where there were other dinosaurs (as I type this I'm now thinking about the whole gorilla debacle...) Anyway, a majority of the time I would wake up as I was falling.  Only once or twice did I ever stay asleep & actually make it to the bottom.  I couldn't tell you what kind of dinosaurs were down there anymore, & I couldn't tell you when exactly I stopped having that dream, but I remember having that same dream multiple times as a child.

For those of you who have been around for a little while you may remember Mr. Oklahoma.  Last June was the last time I saw him.  I don't recall if I ever really told that story or not but essentially he walked out of the hotel room the night he left saying he wasn't going to give up on us & all of this other crap.  I spent most of the summer in a limbo of letting go & holding on.  By the end of the summer I had given up.  

However, during the summer I had a dream about him.  In the dream he called me after an extended period of time (I'm not sure how much time had supposedly passed in the dream) telling me that he loved me, missed me, & was trying to tell me all of this stuff to prove it to me.

Fast forward to this past September, nearly 3.5 months since I had last seen or heard from him.  He called.  I was asleep & for some reason I woke up (my phone was on silent) & I noticed that he was calling.  At first I thought I was dreaming but then when I realized I wasn't I picked up the phone & there he was on the other end.  On the other end of the phone he sat there telling me that he loved me, missed me, thought about me all the time, that I made him the happiest, that he wished that he could be with me but life was complicated.

(For the record that was the last time I ever heard from him...I had also debated texting him that morning but decided not to since I hadn't heard from him in so long & then BOOM)

Saturday night I was staying in Kansas City on my way back to Minnesota.  At approximately 6:45 in the morning I woke up with my heart pounding & my mind racing.

In my dream it was graduation day for the high school I taught at (Saturday actually was their graduation day) & a bunch of the teachers that I worked with were going but I hadn't planned on it.  In the dream teachers were supposed to announce different students but it wasn't just seniors, it was based on the social studies class they had just taken.  Ultimately I decided to go but when I got there it was no longer the school I worked at or the teachers I worked was people that I went to high school with.  I ran into a couple of girls that I graduated with & started talking to them & we all agreed to sit together.  They were talking about the ceremony when all of a sudden I feel this arm around me.  I assumed it was a guy that had graduated a year before me because we had dinner plans that night.  The guy says "Hey! How are you?"  As he's talking with his arm still around me we start sitting down & I start turning towards him.  All I could do was stare.  I knew who it was but it wasn't registering right in my brain.  Even in my dream it seemed impossible.  The person that had their arm around me was a guy that we had graduated with but had killed himself back in 2008/2009.  Even in my dream he wasn't supposed to be alive.  He just said it's really good to see you again & laughed as I started to scream & he disappeared as I woke up.

And now I can't stop thinking about that dream.

Have any of you had reoccurring dreams? Or dreams that came true?  Or dreams of people that have passed on?


  1. I've had recurring dreams but none recently. One dream I've always remembered though was when I was little and had just gotten bit by a dog so I had this horrible dream that I was being chased by a giant dog. I was only 3 but I still remember it vividly.
    Blessed Messes

    1. That reminds me of another reoccurring dream I would have as a kid where I was being chased at night by wolves. Aren't they scary? Glad we aren't having those dreams anymore.