Ten Tuesday Truths

Today is National Honesty Day.  So I thought I'd share some of my truths.  Ten because it's Tuesday & I'm all about that alliteration!

1. I originally left Houston because of 2 boys.  To be far away from one & to be closer to another...

2. In my mind I always think I want to move back to Minnesota because I miss my family, friends, & fall.  But in reality anytime it starts to come close to an actual possibility I have a minor panic attack about leaving Texas.

3. I know plenty of people have more than one dog/pet & will tell me differently, but sometimes I think about getting Nash a sibling & then think I couldn't love another dog as much as I love Nash while I still have Nash.  #MamasFavorite

4. I love coaching, but I think I'm ready to hang it up because I miss my me time.

5. I love the idea of working from home but I truly don't know if I'd have the discipline for it.

6. I love doing my own tarot cards & have Jess to thank for getting me interested enough to get my own deck

7. I haven't spent a full summer in Minnesota at my parents' house in 3 years & I'm both excited and nervous to do so this summer.

8. Sour fruity candy is my favorite.

9. I don't like going to movies, I hardly have a big enough attention span to watch them at home let alone pay to go to a theater & feel forced to be still and silent.

10. Even though I haven't heard back yet, I've pretty much got it in my head that come August I'll be living back in Houston

The Things You Don't See

A million & a half years ago Alyssa & Pinky both wrote about the things you don't see on social media.  Okay so maybe it was just back in June, but that's still a long time.  I have had this post drafted with just a title since Alyssa did it back on June 1.  I have scheduled it probably 3 or 4 times since then without actually hitting post because I haven't taken the time to sit down & write anything.  I like to think I keep it pretty real on here but I also know there are things that I just don't write about or just haven't really gotten into lately because in all honesty I haven't been the best blogger at all this summer.  So here we go:

**Coaching sports actually stresses me out to no end not because it's so time consuming, but because it always comes with that possibility that I won't have a teaching job the following year if they choose to not bring me back as a coach.  I already left one job because of an athletic director & even though my new one seems a million times better, I can tell you right now until I have a contract for the following year in my hands I will be on edge (that's about 7-9 months from now)**

**I often feel like I have to choose between work & social media.  I already had a bleh summer when it came to blogging, although my IG was fairly poppin for awhile, but now that I'm back at work a)I have way less to take pictures of/write about b)I don't have the time to dedicate to reading/commenting/writing for blogs or all the hashtagging/liking/commenting on IG.**

**I don't care about it as much as I did even a couple months ago let alone 8 months ago when I signed up for Instagram for Success**

**I have a spending problem**

**My adorable dog sometimes makes me want to cry, or actually cry.  Okay so I haven't been so stressed out about him that I've actually cried since our first week together, but sometimes I still want to, especially now, because I feel like we aren't spending enough time together & he's not getting to run around/play with others enough**

**My adorable dog pisses me off some days**

**I don't know that I trust my own judgement when it comes to love because I've thought I've had that "when you know you know" feeling before & it turned out to be a complete disaster**

**I post so many pictures of my dog partly because he's adorable but mostly because I don't have time for a real social/love life so it's me & him**

**My apartment is often a disaster**

**When distance & real life get in the way I'm really bad at making an effort to reach out to people aka maintain friendships**

**Falling in love terrifies me for many reasons**

**I'm worse at being an adult now at almost 29 than I was at 24/25**

**I can be a real hot head**

**I will buy myself cheap ass store brand food & what not but my dog gets expensive dog food/treats**

**I don't like to ask for help/depend on people because I hate feeling like an inconvenience but also because I don't like the risk of being let down**

**I have trust issues**