Originally I was going to link up with Andrea today for the Fall Fashion Frenzy. The theme this week is favorite jeans & I am that psychopath that lives in jeans. Like I have slept in jeans & will relax on the couch in jeans. I. LOVE. JEANS! However, I didn't really have anything prepared, and even though I did take a picture in my favorite jeans this morning, I still wasn't motivated to create a whole post about it. You should definitely still check out Andrea's post & The Blended Blog link-up because again, jeans are life!
For the record my favorite pair of jeans are Ariat brand that I got on major sale at Cavenders. They're super comfy, boot cut, & make my butt look great.
Short story long I decided I just wasn't going to post today because I only had a half ass post about jeans. But then I was reminded on Instagram that it was World Mental Health today & I was reminded about M's post about how she does self care & Teh Megan's post about accepting your struggle & I wanted to share a little as well.
I try to keep it pretty real on here on a regular basis so it's no secret that a couple weeks ago I started seeing a therapist. She is awesome. I have struggled with anxiety since at least high school if not longer. High school is just when it became more apparent. There was a point in college, my sophomore year when I was living with an ex-boyfriend, when it got really bad. I had contemplated off & on since then about going to see someone. That's nearly a decade of contemplating. I've always been able to calm myself down eventually though & so I never went in. Finally this year I decided what the hell. I wanted/needed to talk to someone because I have been feeling extra stuck. I don't know where I want to live, I don't know what I want to be when I grow up, I'm not hating my life but I'm not loving it either. When it comes to the major things I was/am feeling like I'm just going through the motions. I go to work because I have to & there are parts/people I like but I certainly don't love it. I live where I live because it's cheap & a nice area but it's not even remotely the type of place I'd like to be. So I decided I needed help talking through all of my options. Staying in education, getting out of education. Staying in my district, going to a new district. Staying in the DFW area or going back to Houston. Staying in Texas or going back to MN. There are pros & cons to all of them and my inability to make a decision had been making my anxiety go bonkers.
So after a decade plus of taking care of my anxiety on my own, here are some of my favorite ways to decompress & bring myself back down to Earth:
-Listen to music, LOUD
-Dance around my apartment like a crazy person...bonus points if Nash is willing to dance with me
-Nash cuddles
-Getting in my car and driving... on the open road (traffic just makes me stabby)
-Windows down, music up
-Closing my eyes & breathing
-Calling my mama or daddy
-Going for a walk
-Writing
-Planning things. It doesn't matter what (a hypothetical trip, different career paths, how to make a move work... planning is my jam)
-Get shit done. AKA distract myself by being productive (dishes, laundry, cleaning)
-Drink coffee or tea
