Day 20: Something You're Struggling With
For I'd say at least 5 months if not longer I've wanted out with the district that I teach in. For awhile I thought about getting out of teaching all together & joining the Air Force...due to my intense debt, the long wait list, & now the location of my new tattoo the Air Force is not an option for me. So about a couple months ago I started applying for new jobs. I started applying heavily in Georgia, a few in Tennessee and Kentucky, & of course some in Texas. Then, I failed my content test to get licensed in Texas so I started applying in Minnesota as a back up plan incase I don't pass the test again in June.
So far I have applied to 49 different school districts, 1 in Kentucky, 3 in Tennessee, 10 in Minnesota, 13 in Georgia, & 22 in Texas. I want out of my district because I am NOT a city girl. I teach in an inner city Title 1 district & it is NOTHING like where I'm from. The lack of motivation, respect, discipline, hard work, parental support kills me on an almost daily basis. I need out. I don't agree with a lot that goes on in the district and can't handle the fact that I feel more like a glorified babysitter than a teacher. On the other hand, I love Texas. I love Texas more than I ever thought I'd love Texas. Back in September I created a new 101 in 1001 list & on there it says something along the lines of getting a job or moving back to Minnesota. Here I am 9 months later & I don't know that I ever want to leave and if I do, definitely not anytime soon.
On Friday I got a voicemail from a school district. The phone call that I had been waiting on for months. A phone call offering me a job interview. A job interview for a town that has less than 2000 people & the school is 5-12. My ideal type of district. The downfall, it's in Minnesota, northern Minnesota. Now don't get me wrong if I ever move back it will definitely be to northern Minnesota. However, I didn't realize just how badly I don't want to go back to Minnesota until I hung up the voicemail & started bawling my eyes out. I do not want to leave Texas. I called back & am still taking the interview, it'll be tomorrow at 2 over the phone.
So my struggle? If offered a job anywhere other than Texas, especially Minnesota, do I take it? Do I take the opportunity to get out of the district? Or do I hold out for a Texas job, possibly having to stay at my current district but getting to stay in Texas. Basically I'm currently struggling with what do I want more: